Friday, September 12, 2008
What to Write?
I know what I want to write. I want to write about all the things I shouldn't write about.
I want to write about flying atomic reactors that UFO stories are pinned on.
I want to write about how criminals are stealing the world using the paper lie of corporations.
I want to write about how all sides fix elections.
I want to write about things I know but shouldn't know.
I want to write about the knowing.
That impossible way of knowing something without knowing it. I don't know how to put it in words. I can't pretend anymore this reality is all there is. I haven't know Patty very long but she has changed my life more than anyone else. I'm not crazy it was all real but I can't explain it in words. Our conversations don't make any sense when I try to write them down. Words are missing and we speak in a half English. I want to write about this most of all but I can't make the connections in my mind to put it to words.
Words are all lies. Science is the politics of half truths. Magic is a lie we tell ourselves in the dark.
Some things you can't capture with words but that is the things I want to write about.
Patty is a woman I'm dating now that was in a coma for two years. She is a walking miracle and a wonderful person I have a lot in common with beside the boarder lands between life and death.