Friday, September 12, 2008

What to Write?

I know what I want to write. I want to write about all the things I shouldn't write about.

I want to write about flying atomic reactors that UFO stories are pinned on.

I want to write about how criminals are stealing the world using the paper lie of corporations.

I want to write about how all sides fix elections.

I want to write about things I know but shouldn't know.

I want to write about the knowing.

That impossible way of knowing something without knowing it. I don't know how to put it in words. I can't pretend anymore this reality is all there is. I haven't know Patty very long but she has changed my life more than anyone else. I'm not crazy it was all real but I can't explain it in words. Our conversations don't make any sense when I try to write them down. Words are missing and we speak in a half English. I want to write about this most of all but I can't make the connections in my mind to put it to words.

Words are all lies. Science is the politics of half truths. Magic is a lie we tell ourselves in the dark.

Some things you can't capture with words but that is the things I want to write about.

Patty is a woman I'm dating now that was in a coma for two years. She is a walking miracle and a wonderful person I have a lot in common with beside the boarder lands between life and death.


Lottery Girl said...

Intrigued by this post--what do you mean by "Words are all lies"?

Robert A Vollrath said...

Words are abstraction of thought but are not thought. Words are only a way for us to communicate using tools of sound or printed and sculpted text.

I often wondered if words could be made of smells and feelings, perhaps this belongs to the realm of lower lifeforms on Earth.

God is no more the word than God is the hammer or saw. You can't contain reality in a word or any collection of words. You can't tell the truth using abstract or edited reality and no matter how hard I try I can't tell you my truth for you would have to live it.

Lottery Girl said...

Ahhh. Now I get what you are saying.

Right now I am listening to some music classes. The instructor is terrific, and I think about what he says for days afterwards. He says that music is the most abstract of the art forms, which I think I agree with.

Words really can be so limiting. Interesting thought for me especially since I am a writer.

Robert A Vollrath said...

The limits of words is what makes writing so great.

I love music but have no talent there. I believe the universe is musical and it is possible to tune into that musical fabric of space time.

I do believe in living words but our words are just tools.