Wednesday, January 27, 2010

By the seat of my pants.

I'm still not finished with my script. In fact I've wore a pair of pants out getting in and out of my work chair. I'm 102 pages into my script and I have more pages than I care to think about to go.
I have three short movies I'm under contract to finish this year and many other art project I must finish soon. I've gone four days with very little sleep, trying to finish the script.

I've never been happier in my life. I know it's the best writing of my life with all the flaws of a first draft. I must push forward, right after I sleep:)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Please stand by......

I'm on page 80 of my script and won't be posting until this first draft is finished.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

River of Dreams

My imagination is like a river flowing in my mind. I can take from that river any time I want.

Sometimes when I'm angry the river boils and cruelty come out of my dreams. I try so hard each day not to get angry and most days I have little problem with this. As I work on the feature script I find I must turn my imagination from the negative and take the high road.

Now that river has flooded my mind with more dreams than I can use:)

Saturday, January 9, 2010

one little scene

I'm happy as I near the end of my feature script. Then one simple scene doesn't work. I begin to rewrite with no end in sight. I was so close and now I'm so far away.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Billion Dollar Dream

Can you put a price tag on your imagination?

My dream is to make the first independent movie to make a profit of over a billion dollars.

Is this dream possible?

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Page 70 & 71, the end of the beginning

I'm over half way to the finish line with my script. I know the length of the script now, 140 pages.

The Avatar script was 272 pages long (I'm not sure if this was the screenplay or the shooting script). If this number refers to what I call the screenplay then the script of my feature will be a 132 pages shorter than James Cameron's epic.

Does page count matter? It matters between a movie made with millions of dollars and a movie made with a few million dollars.

In the middle of the script is the most negative part of my story. I read about two other famous movies that used a similar plot device. One of those movies was accused of being resposible for inspiring teenage boys to kill themselves. I made changes to my script. I'm still telling the story I want but I'm making the script less negative. I have a better, safer and shorter scene.

Even in writing you must do the right thing.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Stone Eden

For many years I've been designing a house made out of stone, earth, slag glass and living things that I call Stone Eden. The structure has five main rooms.

1. Heart Singer
2. Life Bringer
3. Soul Healer
4. Mind Talker
5. Word Spinner

This is a project I'll never build but is a fun mental problem. Someday I'll post plans for this project.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Page 67 or the End of Day Zero

Page 67, I write too slow. I finished Day Zero. The Impossible day in my script except every impossible thing in Day Zero happened to me in real life.

The Dream Burns Bright

A billion dreams slam at me like snowflakes in a blizzard.

"So cold, must reach reality."

I can't go another step. I fall into a great drift of my dreams. All those dreams suck all the warmth of my reality out of me.

"Is this it? Have all my dreams killed me?"

Then one dream burns bright and all the other dreams melt away.

I will write and direct a movie.

Monday, January 4, 2010

The Long Secret

Why don't we tell the truth. It takes too long to tell the whole truth. People we'll think we're lying when we tell the truth. Let's be polite and lie.

In 1976 a eye doctor told me I had lost some of my vision in my left eye. It was forever, I would never get it back. I had been in a car wreak and had broke the steering wheel off with my face.
I didn't tell my parents about my missing vision until December of 2009 when the doctor was wrong and I got my vision back with a simple wish.

I was going to drive my Grand Daughter to see the movie "The Princess and the Frog".

"How can risk the life of my sweet Grand Daughter with my bum eye?"

I now look back on this with guilt for I had risked the life of everyone on the roads I traveled with my bum eye for all those years.

"I wish I could have full vision in my left eye to drive my Grand Daughter to the movies."

My vision in my left eye expanded. The Unselfish Wish more powerful than any prayer in my life.

Why did I keep my broken vision a secret all those years?

I talked to my ex-wife and she said I told her. I had forgotten that, so the long secret wasn't as secret as I thought. April 11th 2010.

Nose Switch

I can turn off my sense of smell now by force of will. I've had a weak sense of smell since 1975.
I didn't know I could turn it off until last Thanksgiving when I buried a pet cat and didn't want to smell death as I put him in his small grave.

The bad thing about this is I couldn't taste anything but the mustard in the deviled eggs and the sage in the dressing.

"Dad is this chicken or turkey?"

"Chicken, can't you taste it?"

"Just warm shapes in my mouth dad."

What a waste of a Thanksgiving meal.

It takes me three days to turn off my sense of smell and I haven't figured how to turn it back on yet. I can taste food again but my sense of smell is almost gone. I fear this mind experiment went too far.

The Running Gag

I'm going to try to write something everyday on this blog for the next few weeks. I'm sorry I have no photos but I no longer have a scanner and my digital camera is broken.

I'm working several running gags into my script. Is a running gag funny? Bacon is a running gag in my script. Some people think donuts are funny but I think bacon is very funny. I'm finding it very hard to write about my script without saying anything about it.

Maybe I should write about my third black void vision where I predicted the past (I saw a burning building with four bodies hanging from a support beam). No that's just too weird.

I'm writing a drama or a comedy, I'm not quite sure. I know there is a bicycle race in the movie that is fixed by the hero. Well it's not a movie yet, it's just a script, well it's not just a script it's a great script. Do I have a ego problem?

What the script is really about is riverboats of different scales. I was going to write about the Human Soul being a Scientific Fact but that is just to far out for most people.

I really hate getting raw bacon or should I say undercooked bacon, don't you?

Sunday, January 3, 2010


My feature length movie script has mutated.

Three of my main characters were to be Jehovah Witnesses. This concept no longer worked in the larger context of the story and the characters became more secular. I move forward.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Page 63

Tired beyond words. It's been years since I wrote a feature length script. I'm a better writer than I was but my spelling is very bad. I can only spell when I'm angry. Strange but true.

Thank the underlying intelligent that is the universe that I have spell check. I feel like a retarded man with a giant imagination. I'm not even at base camp for Mount Impossible. I just used spell check. I typed a (p) in impossible instead of the (b). Ps & Bs look the same to me. I'm not complaining, I love my messed up brain. I wouldn't trade it for a new brain.

Page 63, I'm only at page 63 in the script. Must push on.

Banning Books

I won't be buying any new books this year. If I do buy books in the future I will be buying e-books.
I think my graphic novels won't be published on paper. I'm tired of killing trees to feed my book addiction.

Day Zero

I've decided to write about the script I'm writing on without writing about the script I'm writing on. I'm in Day Zero of the script. I know that doesn't mean anything to you but I'm writing to the future now and not to the present.

I can't tell you the name of the script. I can't tell you any details of the script. I can't tell you much of anything. I can tell you I'm inventing a new way to present a movie that is well, different.

What is Day Zero? Day Zero is the highest high and the lowest low for my female lead character.

Friday, January 1, 2010

The End Of Politics

I'm tired of bribe merchants calling themselves leaders. Why can't we be the leaders of the world and put an end to elite rule by rich aristocrats in corrupt city-states? We have the technology and you are using it as you read this.

Robert Full on engineering and evolution | Video on

Robert Full on engineering and evolution | Video on

Another great TED video you might like.

Heart Ache

Heart Ache is how I start the year off. I write this down on my little ugly troll of a blog for no good reason other than to remind me what I have given up in the longing for a dream.

I have given up the love of a good woman.