From Pain to New Vision

I have shingles and worst I got shingles in my left eye in 2003. The most painful sickness ever to bless me. For I believe the shingles in my eye regrew nerves that gave me back full vision in that half blind orb. A simple wish triggered the nerves to start working again.

The doctor told me I could go blind in that eye and the opposite happened:)

The Long Secret

Why don't we tell the truth. It takes too long to tell the whole truth. People we'll think we're lying when we tell the truth. Let's be polite and lie.

In 1976 a eye doctor told me I had lost some of my vision in my left eye. It was forever, I would never get it back. I had been in a car wreak and had broke the steering wheel off with my face.
I didn't tell my parents about my missing vision until December of 2009 when the doctor was wrong and I got my vision back with a simple wish.

I was going to drive my Grand Daughter to see the movie "The Princess and the Frog".

"How can risk the life of my sweet Grand Daughter with my bum eye?"

I now look back on this with guilt for I had risked the life of everyone on the roads I traveled with my bum eye for all those years.

"I wish I could have full vision in my left eye to drive my Grand Daughter to the movies."

My vision in my left eye expanded. The Unselfish Wish more powerful than any prayer in my life.

Why did I keep my broken vision a secret all those years?

I talked to my ex-wife and she said I told her. I had forgotten that, so the long secret wasn't as secret as I thought. April 11th 2010.

A small miracle

Many years ago I lost part of the vision in my left eye. The exact date of this partial blindness is Dec. 14, 1975. A month ago I simply wished my left eye would have full vision and my sight expanded.

A Prayer for a New President

"May God protect you and guide you in your journey on the hardest path to walk. Amen."

Love is........

Love is everything. Hate is self love with a small L. Fear is a worry of the lost love of one's self or the lost of those we love.

Love is everything. I love my enemies more than I love myself. I face all the evil in the world and all the evil that dwells within me. I am part of the one soul and I love all the good and forgive all the bad in that one soul.

Love is my one year old grand daughter taking care of me for 20 minutes when I was too tired to take care of her. Her father needs to pay a bill leaving me alone with his daughter and I turn to the little girl and said;

"Oh Cordelia what am I going to do. I'm too tired to watch you."

I was lying on a couch too tired to stand. Cordelia first brings me a pillow and then a blanket.
She tucks the blanket around my legs and when she is finished with that good deed she walks over to me and holds my hand. She makes soft sounds in an imitation of a lullaby.

Cordelia stands by me holding my hand for over 15 minutes till her father returns.
I have never felt so loved.

More to come.......

Church Dictator

I was the last Chairman of the Board for the Kingsville Christian Church. The church was over a hundred years old.

I stood up after services on one of the last Sundays the church was open.

"As the leader of the church I must tell everyone it is time to close the church down. We have ran out of money to keep the church open."

No one said anything and the church was closed. I should have taken a vote but I didn't.

The church had been divided for over a year as our last minister was trying to steal the church and turn it into his own form of religion. I owed it to all the people that founded the church and keep it going for all those years to put an end to the insanity that had taken over our church.

I was a Church Dictator and I'm not proud of that fact. My father had heart trouble at the time and I know the conflict in the church was killing him. My father's life is more important than all the churches in the world. If what I did was a sin then I'll own that sin.

Into Hell

I was dead falling back to life. I had gone into the Light and touched the mind of God.
I rejected the Light and fell back into the darkness. I fell through the black empty void of Hell.
The pain twisted my soul into echoes of my self and demons of my own design came to feast on my fat ego. Designer Demons I had created out of my own imagination tore alway the virtue of my youth.

Blackness, silents, I hungered for the Light.

The sound of a siren brought me out of the darkness and I opened my eyes to the Para Medic leaning over me.

"Don't worry you're not going to die."

I closed my eyes and embraced the darkness of my own mind.

Rainbow Vortex

I found the end of a rainbow. I have seen heaven and swam in God's rivers of imagination. I have been hit by lightening through the very keypad I type this post on. I have seen a star fall from the sky and hit the Earth. I have fallen in love with wonderful women four times in my life. I have seen my sons born. I have lived to know my grandchildren. I have no price. You can not buy pieces of my soul for all the riches in this world and I fell pity for the poor fools that sell pieces of their souls.

July 25th, 2008 I will be 50 years old. I am glad to put that final nail in the coffin of my youth.
Youth culture is a fool's glory and I never wanted any part of it. Youth culture is junk food for the soul. Being cool is fool's gold and the sooner 'cool' dies the better off the world will be. I look forward to the changes to come in the future and to make my mark on it in some small way if God would be so kind to let me.

I thank God he has given me such wonderful parents. My sins swirl around me in a vortex and the color of my good deeds are clouded by those evil acts. With parents as good as mine there should have been no bad deeds. I move forward now into the twilight of my life. I must do as many good deeds as time allows. Perhaps I will know paradise a second time.